Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Marie I was craving sweets lately and just gave in and had a small chocolate extreme blizzard from DQ. I had it at about 2 today and haven't been hungry since. So much fat and sugar, must have filled me up.
I want to weigh myself so bad but am not going to. I know my body needs more time to adjust and change. I've been doing this for a month tomorrow and it's just too soon. I will get discouraged and it's not been that long.
I will say going to step aerobic does give me quite a workout. I'm wiped out that day and sore but it's that good sore. It's also very humbling. Most of the girls in there are very thin. I try to get a step so I can't see myself. The girls are nice but I feel like they are inside laughing at me. Granted there is no indication that anyone is making fun of me. I keep going to step aerobic even though it's not fun to see myself in the mirror at times. I am proud of myself for going and I know it's better for me to go and feel that way than not go at all. It's still frustrating.