Finally...

Ok, so I have finally gotten started. It may be just a small step but I went to the gym today. We hold each other back a lot- we are enablers. All it takes is one of us saying "eh, do you really want to go to the gym?" or "we could just order a pizza" and it's all over. So we've made a huge commitment to doing this. Day one is always the hardest for me. We're also eating smaller meals and trying to plan them out. Small step but still a step. Today I was on one of those stepper/elliptical things for an hour without stopping! Woohoo!

Additionally, I have been working on working out some of my own issues to get myself more centered and be a better person. Wedding planning was turning me into an evil person, because we are on a budget, my dad isn't alive and that makes me sad, and my mom is HOURS away and can't help... I was resenting EVERYONE'S opinion and snapping a lot. Brian and I have done a lot of talking, and we are on the right track. We're making it more HIM & ME and consulting with each other about everything, and when we're not talking about it- I'm not worrying about it constantly. AND I made our wedding website!! Email me (pugandbugg at yahoo dot com) if you want to see it! I'm proud that we're such a unified front now.

Only failure- I don't know if I have mentioned this (since I try not to on my blog because coworkers see it) but I HATE my job and have a lot of issues from it. Unfortunately I had a great interview last week but was their SECOND choice so I didn't get it. Isn't that always how it is? They probably tell everyone they were the second choice. Either way, no new job. BUT- my outlook is improving since I am lucky to have any job at all.

Overall I feel better and am really looking forward to taking lots more tiny, healthy steps that will add up to huge changes!